I ain't smart

Hey its flaming dragon again, doing another post here.....

U know wat, i had a 'bad' dream yesterday.... i dreamed that i got 3.95 for my gpa this semester, i was so thrilled, so the whole day i was so excited, couldn't wait to know my result. BUT hell.... when i finally got to know my result, haha.... its pretty close to what i dreamed, the difference is small, only 0.4 lower than what i dreamed, but its enough to spoil my whole-day-mood... Now u know why i call it a bad dream.... the higher the expectation, the painer injuries u gonna get, this is what i learnt today.

I couldn't differentiate now, which one is dream? 3.95 or 3.55? it doesn't matter now, everyone drops in this semester, the worst result i have gotten so far..... couldn't accept the fact that my result dropped every semester. I know i shouldn't have felt upset, becoz there r many people below me, but i don wanna win them, the only one i wan to win is myself... its pathetic that i can't even beat myself.....

It reminds me something..... i'm not really that smart.... flaming dragon who doesn't flame, n its stupid, today the once cocky flaming dragon, is hexed by a witch... to become a worm. So now i barely adjusted myself..... to the fact that, i'm not clever... accepted the fact that, i shouldn't play too much, shouldn't study last minute..... should have dropped Zailan's class, shouldn't have re-added Rajan's class.... what a bad decision that makes such a big impact to me now...

Sorry of being racist... but what do u expect from them? an indian who helps his race a lot and claims himself a non-discriminate.... a malay who does nothing in class except for leaking the test questions, which makes all of us have to re-take the paper later on.... funny? Calculus and English... 2 subjects that i could actually score a A- for them.... but under the fantastic lecturing of this 2 bullshits i scored my 1st 2 B in my foundation...

Anyway today is the death of Michael Jackon and Farrah Fawcett, may them rest in peace, they might become best friends in heaven too. Well, i'm not that emo actually, just feel disappointing..... but anyway, i'll get better tomorrow... hope my friends too.

Damn!(just to release stress)

Rest in Peace

Michael Jackson died today morning 5.21 am hope he can rest in peace . We have lost a person who is very talented in music n the entertainment world . He declared as the king of pop hope he can rest in peace la . . .

Fcked off !!

If u want tell me things tell properly la dont need say those kind of words to me mah like want tell dont want tell like that . So sad la as if i beg u to tell me like that . So sad la now anywayz trying to stay at home and see how boring is it the wheather like that so dusty and dirty i also dont want go out la haiz bad for health . .. .

Life is all about learning

Well today very interesting i woke up at 10 something 1st thing i did was online then suddenly some 1 ring the bell i tot was who so i went out and see la who is that then saw my dad`s friend come do the lighting want so i quickly open the door for him n he then teaches me how to do the lightning how many ohms and stuff la the starter shud be near this not that bla bla bla many things la . Then after that finish fixing liao he tell me a lot of things bout life n say how valuable life is and stuff la very thankfull to this guy that awakens me . thank u .

Damn wheather

Omg la the wheather has become bad to worse each day .So sad la u know la normally hor every 3 days only i saw dust on my table but now hor 1 day liao i saw dust at my table liao keep 1 go clean it very sien d la so sad . . ARgh sad la so sien everyday at hse keep watch show nia so sien WHO WANT GO OUTING ??? CALL ME !! HAHA

I ain't flaming

Hey, just borrow adrian's blog account to write something, hope u guys don mind reading my 1-post blog....

What's ur feeling now? my feeling is kinda strange... holiday? how come i don feel happy at all? or should i say i ain't feeling any happy all along the week. I started mood swinging last sunday, my mood changed everyday..... worse. Stress of studying? kinda.... got disturbed by someone while i was studying last weekends. I don usually mind about the musics, but last weekends i did, i just felt lucky that i didn't start to fight, he is good.

Following days i was quite emo too, scolded my friends for disturbing me to study, just wanna apologize to them.... i feel really guilty, just hope that u all can accept the serious me when i don joke. Sorry Stone, Chris, and Sundae, and some other that i forgot to mention...

Tough week ended today, everyone happy, i shall, supposely.... but i feel aimless all of sudden.
Foundation.... the programme that i once wanted it to be finished as soon as it possibly can, but hey, 3rd sem has just ended, which means no more studies for at least 3 weeks, i just feel life is so empty now.... separated with you guys is sad, going back to meet my friends is fun, but after 3 weeks i have to travel again sad again. Having the feeing of separation from ur friends for twice within 3 weeks.... i can't afford, maybe that is what they call a traveller's feeling....

3 semesters of foundation ends, i have once told my friend that 3 sem passed like fucking fast, everything happened 2 sem ago seems to be not so important now.... everyone is so exciting about the coming holiday, but i don... i just hope that foundation ain't never end, i don feel like entering degree.... because everything may change... i wan it to be remained like now... together with who i like, see who i like, play with who i wan, i just don wanna enter degree... things might change, not like now already.... but i guess time never stop ticking isn't it....

Maybe i shouldn't worry too much, but sitting in front of my laptop now i ain't know wat i'm gonna do, no friends, no msges, no nudges from msn, no nothing.... just me alone. Maybe since i enter here, i'm destined to be alone despite i'm always surrounded my them. Maybe that is the life of a flaming dragon.... destined to stay alone in castle where noone would dare to approach.... but does anyone know, Imma flaming dragon who ain't flame at all, a joker who doesn't think that his jokes are funny despite everyone is laughing.... loses my target, ability, i feel like i just hit the rock bottom.... can anyone save me? you... please....

Happy holiday flaming dragon....

call me out call me out !!

Finally the drastic final exam has finally over . So pls call me Out Out Out !!! I want out I cannot tahan liao weeeeeeee bring me out man .. Or jio me out la go for movie or something especially my girl de friend ^ ^ .