Just felt like writing things down . I felt is very difficult to express your feelings to ur friends anymore cause i think there`s a huge gap between us . My friend once told me a very interesting story about a proton car versus a ferrari car . In conclusion this story tells us if u were born to be a proton car whatever shit u try to do will not make u a ferrari car . I am very tired of my daily life routine i hope i can change this routine when the time comes . Just notice something very important sometimes things are meant to be unknown better than to be known trust me there are certain things in life that apply this concept .